{"id":4243,"date":"2022-01-10T22:17:46","date_gmt":"2022-01-10T22:17:46","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/localhost:8000\/?page_id=4243"},"modified":"2023-04-05T18:20:40","modified_gmt":"2023-04-06T01:20:40","slug":"a-poem-that-begins-at-the-end","status":"publish","type":"page","link":"https:\/\/www.catholicboy.com\/WP\/research\/performance-reviews\/a-poem-that-begins-at-the-end\/","title":{"rendered":"a poem that begins at the end"},"content":{"rendered":"\n

Jim Carroll at NYU
<\/strong>Poem-review by Amy Spencer<\/a>
26 October 1995<\/p>\n\n\n\n

It’s not always natural to start from the
beginning.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

The white lines jut out in every
direction and I am now.
I sit admiring skaters in their
coordination, subordination, poise, presence,
denial.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Approaching a kind of a god in
all his catharsis, i too felt as
though I were on stage, or like a
student beaming over the empty
display case no matter because
it is the procession that counts.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

My head contracted in a pulse like
rhythm and I oozed vile juices
but as I stepped up and came near
he spoke and I began to quake
muscle deteriorating senses
reaching a semi-orgasmic
pinnacle<\/p>\n\n\n\n

He became mine inscribing
indelible words on the page
that is me the other I
searched for and could finally
hold was in that moment
perfected
simplicity the
key to enhancement<\/p>\n\n\n\n

His performance it cleansed
me enlightened me
in him i found my
personal charioteer
in whom i take refuge<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Our planes overlapped
every syllable building
closer to that narrow
point where everything
seems clear
when viewed through
a distorted glass.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I waited I would have
forever
sitting waiting watching waiting
first to wait, hurry up
and wait
life is a line and
Murphy rules my realm<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I arrive and write<\/p>\n\n\n\n

dreams are poetry pure
i walked
the park
hack
hot dogs greet pretzles
while knish says good-night<\/p>\n\n\n\n

The N comes to a screeching, sparking
stop
an eternity slips by and
25 minutes pass
squeezing, insertion, flying<\/p>\n\n\n\n

A POEM THAT ENDS AT THE BEGINNING<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Jim Carroll at NYUPoem-review by 26 October 1995 It’s not always natural to start from thebeginning. The white lines jut out in everydirection and I am now.I sit admiring skaters in theircoordination, subordination, poise, presence,denial. 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