I was diagnosed with ADHD recently. I never would have expected it based on my previous understanding of what it is. Now I am learning a lot about ADHD. It is an incredible learning experience for me, and amazingly liberating to understand so many thing that, turns out, were all ADHD.
Google AI says “ADHD (Attention-Deficit/Hyperactivity Disorder) is a persistent condition affecting focus, organization, and impulse control, with symptoms like difficulty finishing tasks, poor time management, restlessness, and emotional regulation challenges that worsen with life’s demands, often requiring medication, therapy (like CBT), and lifestyle adjustments for effective management, though it’s rooted in childhood, symptoms often become prominent in adulthood.”
Thing is, that description is others describing it externally. No way I would have ever recognized it in myself based on the medical description. But I was diagnosed based on a visit with a psychiatrist and a TOVA test, which I failed spectacularly. (In other words my score was off the charts below normal.)
Turns out the neurological “differences” that are ADHD are the reasons catholicboy.com exists. But it is also why I have failed so spectacularly in later years.
I don’t think I can offer all the relevant details of what ADHD is and how it affects a person without boring most people . . .
But let me try to explain how it appears my ADHD has affected this website.
The “Attention Deficit” part of the name of the “disorder” is really misleading, name-wise. The reason this website exists, everything I published, all of the the research I did, and everything on this website is a result of my ADHD. It’s this hyperfocus thing that is part of ADHD. I can focus on something that interests me intensely almost indefinitely. Everything on catholicboy.com and everything I have published on JC is because of my ADHD. To this day I can dive into JC and stay there.
Yet another part of “Attention Deficit” is . . . it’s really hard for me to engage with boring stuff. So. Database crashes. Dealing with that is a whole world of boring stuff. Multiple backups of every file on 9 hard drives? Well . . . that has happened several times over the past 25 years. Um. And consolidating all of that?
I am now going to take another stab at organizing the files. Wish me luck.